The Void is a feeling of emptieness inside me, all the time when things go good, the joy can last only so long before bad stuff happends in my life, and I soon get this feeling of being unwanted, and unusefulness to the world, no matter how hard I try, it is always there. It's ability to over power me, I feel like crawling into a dark corner, but I know that it does'nt help... or atleast it makes me feel uneasy when I do this. I have looked very deep inside myself, and some people say it does'nt matter if God exist or not. Well, I say so. When my faith is dry, I looked into my self, so much emptieness, and not just in me, put perhaps the world it self! If there were no God, no creator, is this life without purpose? Are we just here? And I felt sick when thinking about such things. If there were no purpose and no hope for the world, would there be less meaning in the world? I would'nt go out doing bad things, and I would still very much value life, but I would do as I wanted before. My Mountains. But as I feel these dark emotions, I always fight against it, always reasoning. It felt to the point were it was cutting my very soul, and still cutting deeper. Until I seeked God, and waited, and waited, and then went for a run. For some reason running is good medicine. It is'nt something like I go out try a bit were I'm a bit out of breathe, but I try until my heart is hurting, and my breath as hard as it could be. I would feel sickly tired, and prey, and suddenly feel better, and have the endurance and strength to continue. That always amazes me. That I really believe that God is helping me, and giving me the spiritual energy to keep going, and the strength to continue. The fear sometimes get to me, if I just knew there was'nt God, perhaps I would'nt have as much passion to seek the right thing. In a sesne it's a little bit of bad character on my part. To barry my dark emotions is one thing, but to ocer come them is another, it feels like it is never endless, like a chasing of the wind.